I did not eat a real breakfast yesterday before work. I had the usual 2 cups of coffee, and then a vanilla pudding, banana, and a bottle of cran-grape juice. Soon after clocking into work, I was feeling light-headed, dizzy, slightly nauseous and needed to go to the bathroom every half hour, which is a bit excessive for me. I was also having a harder time concentrating on a conversation that I was having with a manager, but somehow faked my way through it.

I usually take my first 15-minute break about 10:15, but yesterday  I took it at 9:45, so I could hurry downstairs to have cereal and a peanut butter & banana sandwich. Peanut butter helps real fast when I feel like this. I was almost feeling back to normal by the time I got back up to the gift shop. Now I have been checked for diabetes  a few times and even though it runs in the family, I have never been diagnosed with it. Years ago  I had even bought my own  glucose monitor and used to check my blood sugar often. But with all my moving around, I left it behind. Few of my relatives have died from diabetic issues and my dad had taken pills for years but for about 8-9 months has had to take insulin shots.

My life has been what you could call unstable for years…moving around so much without the ability to have medical Insurance or even see a regular doctor. Yeah, even with all the talk around about Obamacare I still have no insurance.  The nearest urgent care here is 1/2 hour away in Rapid City but without my car it might as well be hundreds of hours.  If I get the job at Death Valley, the closest medical facilities are in Las Vegas which is 2.5-3 hours away, and would be impossible for me to get to. I lived in Vegas for about 7 months but never saw a doctor. When I am in the right location then I have no money or insurance…so the right location makes no difference. I need location, money/insurance, time, and transportation to get to health stuff to happen all at the same time.

When I had first arrived for work at the Grand Canyon in 2007, I used to grab potatoes…baked, mashed or even the deep fried breakfast potatoes to relieve the strange symptoms. Now I hardly eat potato except when there is potato salad for dinner, or a rare treat of sweet potato fries. Real fresh produce (or healthy UNPROCESSED  food) is a rare thing in national park areas where I work. So I am not sure how a full-blown diabetic can survive long term in these places.

Today is my day off and I already ate crackers with peanut butter with my morning coffee and just zapped some mac & cheese in the microwave for lunch. It’s not a healthy meal, but on my days off from work, I hate waiting around for the shuttle schedule, to get a ride up the hill to the employee dining room (EDR), And most seasonal jobs in parks only have employee meals at a certain schedule, which never fits my needs. At least at the Grand Canyon I could eat whenever I wanted.