Good morning, I am starting this new year watching “My 600 Pound Life”. There seems to be a marathon of transformation shows on today. Brianne is probably one of my favorite people on the show so far. During a commercial I decided to weigh myself… 194.8#
My son is getting married in September..about 36 weeks from now. For a minute today, I went to fantasy land daydreaming about losing at least 2 pounds EVERY week for the next 36 weeks and show up at the wedding weighing 122 pounds. I think the last time that my son saw me, I weighed around 169-170.
There are times when I am sitting in my room alone watching these weightloss shows, that I can be very critical of some people on them. I have no problem thinking of advice for them even while knowing that I have had a hard time following the same advice. I used to watch “The Biggest Loser” but I knew that I would never last a day if Jillian Michaels was yelling in my face like she did with people on the show.
Years ago while pregnant, I had no problem doing what most women say is absolutely impossible… I quit cold-turkey..I quit smoking AND I quit caffeine. No coffee, No colas, & No chocolate. My daughter used to tell me that the reason that I could do something was because I wasn’t “human”.. but that was her explanation for a few things about me. What made it easy at the time was the fact that I did it for someone else (an unborn child), so now I just need to remind myself that I am still doing it for my child.
The collage of random pics were some of my memories of 2019…hopefully everyone reading this has a wonderful 2020. And if my “secret santa” is reading this.. Thank you!