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Preparing For Another Trip to New England

Recently my daughter sent me a message saying that my granddaughter would be graduating from high school on June 4th. Before I received that message I had just assumed that Brianna wouldn’t be graduating until 2019, so I thought I still had plenty of time to arrange my trip. Now I had 3 weeks to figure out how to get back to Northern New Hampshire, if I wanted to watch her receive her diploma.

It will take me longer than a normal weekend just to arrange for the trip there…nevermind a return trip. We are short-staffed at work, so I am assuming that it would be impossible to ask for a whole week off. So I ain’t asking for time off, I will just tell my boss that I am leaving. My last day of work will be May 31st. Yes that won’t help the staffing situation at work…but sometimes you just have to say “Oh f♡<k it!” and do what you want and not worry about what someone else wants.

I have missed so many family events…weddings, birthdays, family reunion, holidays, funerals, and I have never even met most of my 13 grandkids. I don’t even know when half their birthdays are. I missed most events because I was working in different states, mostly on the other side of the country.

Brianna is my oldest granddaughter and I have no idea who she is as a person. I know that she recently started a job but have no idea what the job is or if she even likes it. I don’t know if she will stay at this job or go on to college somewhere. I have no idea what her interests are, so I don’t know what she would even study in college if she ever decided to go. I’m not sure if she will stay in New England or decide to move to AZ, to be closer to her dad’s family. Geez, don’t grandparents usually have a clue on all that stuff? Well I guess this is one grandmother that really is just a name on the family tree and nothing more.

Well seeing as I have now bought my plane ticket from Phoenix to Boston, and got a hotel room in Northern New Hampshire for 2 or 3 nights it’s time to get packing. I have 1 small suitcase for my checked luggage. So small that my winter coat doesn’t even fit in it. I will just have to leave all winter clothes behind, and worry about them in another 6 months. Oh hell, I don’t even know where I will be in 6 months. Oh hell, I ain’t figured out yet what I will be doing after I attend this graduation.

Just when I start thinking it’s safe to relax and settle in at my present location, life throws a curveball at me. I should be used to it by now.


My Cousin: or the evil hurricane

Never saw such pain
Come crashing in like a raging storm.
Followed by crocodile tears, like buckets of rain.

Just when you thought the coast was clear,
She would go off on some rant
And give you something new to fear.

I thought it couldn’t be real cuz it was so bizarre.
As I tried to hide under the blankets.
Until the next morning when I saw the open scar.

I didn’t know what to expect, hour to hour.
Just when things got calm,
She would come back in declaring her power.


If you notice the bandage on her arm….it’s to cover a self-inflicted gash, where she tried slicing her own arm with a razor.

Why? I don’t think I will ever truly understand…but then again, I don’t understand her need for cocaine either.

I keep asking myself…how did I get talked into visiting family in Georgia. There is no real reason to be here, but I have been stuck here for 2 weeks now.

My Christmas


Spending any big holiday away from home…well the home you grew up in, the home where most of your biological family still lives, can be an emotional struggle sometimes even if your family called you Scrooge.

This year I got a new family (mostly thanks to my roomie, Kim). I had a yummy christmas dinner with 11 other people all gathered together in 1 RV. The retail dept (that I work for) got 2nd place for our decorated golf cart in the parade. Unfortunately I did not win anything for my decorated  door.


It’s almost a new year. For a seasonal worker like me that means it’s time to buckle down and get resumes or applications ready to send out for the next seasonal job. Some of my new “family” here are planning on going to Yellowstone National Park. I have also found a few jobs there that I like. Now if Christmas wishes really came true then I would wish for Kim, Katie, Robert, Allison, Kathleen & Dave, to all get jobs in Yellowstone so we could have another season together.

P.S. sorry this is my 1st blog this month…I meant to write earlier about work/paychecks, my trip to Stovepipe Wells when my roomie lent me her truck for the day, the pregnant roadrunner behind my dorm and other stuff…but life got in the way. 🙂